leslie peacock.

Who would have thought, the last day of the year, I'd be here in my room, alone. Thinking what could have been. Bringing in the new year, with a heavy heart. New year resolutions, Ive got tons, but it isnt of any use if I cant do it.

Ive taken things for granted, shoved you aside, not appreciated you and treasured you when I should. When it matters, I didn do it. But not when it matters most to me, you tell me its far too late. All Im asking is for a last chance. That last hope, to put that smile back on my face again. To build that fire that u once had for me. To bring back that spark. I know I have baggage. Lots of it. Who would wanna date someone who isnt there for him all the time. I wanna be there for you, do what I didn do when I should have done.

U use to call me the one. To me you still are. U were my first true love. U are my first true love. And thats why I wanna make it right again. I cant bring myself to love another, or let anyone else in. U were my world, and u still are.

I must have fallen head over heels for u along the way and at the same time, lost my way. Ive found my road and it always seems to lead straight back to you. You say its far too late, that you've truely moved on, Im just asking you to look into your heart and find me somewhere, somewhere that Im hiding cos Ive never left.

The last day of the year, the year where I had the best summer I could have ever imagined. The year where I started the year with you. And ended it without. The year where U've made me smile, laugh and cry. The year where Ive broken your heart and saw u walk away. The year where Im sitting here, asking the guy Im still in love with, to see if he could give me once last chance.

It has been a remarkable year. A roller-caster ride. I loved the beginning if the year. And I hated who I became at the end of it. I lost the one true thing that mattered to me. The reason why I wake up with a smile on my face and go to bed with sweet dreams. If only you could wipe that tear in the mornings and chase those bad dreams away. I'll forever be in debt to you.

Ive never stopped loving u, even when I was driving u away. I think abt that first kiss in July, it keeps playing in my head, and that last one in Sept. Up till now. I wish I could just walk away from this a stronger person.

But I cant seem to do it.

Cos all Im asking for is one last chance.