leslie peacock.

Time heals all wounds.. thats what it says, but thats not how it feels.. I feel so helpless being so far away from u, not being able to do anything, come round to talk to u and stuff.. just helpless and the only thing that I can do just makes u want to be away from me more... Im not gonna pretend that Im alright cos I have not been for the past few weeks and its eating me from inside.. and when I have time alone I just let it all out and it hurts so bad... it really does...

Moving on and letting go right now would be the best option. U've done it and u should be feeling more liberated abt it, but I cant seem to do it.. I just have so much inside me that is for u, and it doesnt want to go away. I care for u so much still, I think abt u all the time and I just love u so so much still. This has been the most painful lesson Ive ever had to learn. Friends tell me I should start letting go if I dont get anything in return from u since it has already been that long since u left.. but I cant seem to let go.. i just dont wanna let u go. Im still clinging on so tightly. How can I ever let anyone else in in the future when all I have inside is for u.

I must have cried a million tears, wished upon a thousands stars, pray a thousand times and wished on my birthday for u to just see how much I feel abt u too. Its always hang in there leslie, hang in there... Im hanging in for dear life.. I cant let go.. I just cant.. Like i said to u before.. U want distance while the thing I need now is u holding me tight saying everything will be alright, we'll be alright. I just wanna go home so badly. Wish this was all just a bad dream that I can just wake up from and U will be standing there smiling at me like how u always do.

Im not the same person any more. Im just so drained cos everything I do or feel is put into this and nothing else. What can i do to make u see that Im so sorry for everything that I have done which has gotten us to where we are today...

Im just so so sorry for everything... and Im missing u so much.. just so much... just wanna be beside u again...
its just u*