Hardest Goodbye
I had to say one of the.. that's not true.. I had to say THE most difficult "goodbye" today to someone who I know will not be there when I return in June, someone whom I have known all my life... Saying your final goodbye, to someone who has watched me grow up, am part of my life as much as I have been part of her's... I leave SG with a heavy heart, knowing that I will not be around when that fateful day comes..
Im torn as to how I should be feeling... I don't want her to be suffering for a long time, the pain must be eating her from inside. On the other hand, I don't want her to go, not being there whenever I visit in the future, not being there to provide all the chinese proverbs when we toss raw fish during CNY, the thought of not writing her name on a christmas card.. I just rather not think about it...
All I hope and pray is that she'll be at peace soon, pain free and happy, knowing that she'll always be around, somehow, somewhere...
Por Por, I'm gonna miss you so much... ♥
