*Going Cold Turkey*
Missing the companionship. That someone who I can call day or night. "What are u up to? Could u talk to me till I fall asleep please.." That one person who just knows me so well, knows the right thing to say at the right time. The loneliness is just something that Ive not quite gotten use to over the weeks. Company of friends is great, but its not the same.
Inside still feels lonely..
I now look at friends who have been single for ages and I feel sad for them at times, knowing what they are missing out on. But I find myself in the same predicament now. Nights are just so long. I lie awake at night, itching to call someone to talk to. But who can I call. 50 hours of free international calls and yet I hardly use it anymore, just the occasional call home when skype fails again.
Ive taken on too much over the last couple of weeks. And its starting to hit me back in the face, hard. Sleepless nights are the worst and has taken over my already mundane life. And tonight is no exception.
I miss talking. Talking about anything. I miss sharing my day, my thoughts, my feelings.
Just my thoughts, my feelings that Ive been keeping in.
So I write....*
