"Cherish"
To treat with affection and tenderness.
To hold dear.
To keep fondly in mind.
There are so many things in life we hardly cherish... We take for granted. I know I have. Ive been lucky enough to have a great family that always supports me, amazing friends that will always be there for me. And I had someone who cherished me but yet.. I did not cherish him as much as I should have. He was standing right in front of me, asking to be loved, asking to be given back just as much as he gave me. But I never did.
I didn cherish him as much as he deserved. I have been thinking the last few days why I acted the way I did those couple of months. Why??? Cos I was stubborn?? Thick headed?? I wanted to be this strong independent person. To be there for anyone who needed me. But the one person that needed me the most, I wasnt there for him. I didn hear his cries, I never felt his pains. I always thought he was a strong person, who could do anything single-handedly. Who could do everything on his own. Who never needed me. But truth of the matter was he did need me. And I was never there.
I look back now and wonder, why didn I put him first when I had the chance. Cos he's first on my every list now. First person I think of when I get up and go to sleep, first person I talk abt each time, first everything. Its not that hard. I could drop everything just to talk to him for hours, minutes or even seconds. A simple Hi , anything, but I didn. I could wait hours just for him to wake up and be there when he does, but I didn. It was always something else, or someone else.
I now know how it feels to be screaming and have no one run to me. I know it feels to be pushed off the top of his list. To not be that person he wants to make happy. To not be the centre of his world. Im living through what he was going through those months.
So cherish what u all have. Cos if u have someone who really loves you, you are really lucky. Never take it for granted, cos only when you lose it will you realise you've lost the best thing that has happened to you. And getting it back might never happen. And thats the worse feeling in the world. So cherish who you have. Cos its not everyday someone can just come by and sweep you off your feet like he did.
I didn cherish this as much as I should have....
.....But I cherish what he gave me from it....
