leslie peacock.

The Break-Up

Break ups are never easy.. nor are they ever simple... Somehow, I always seem to have messy break-ups that lasts forever.. like a dark shadow that will never go away and keep on haunting you....

Being the initator, u will have a sense of guilt towards the person u break up wif.. from tat guilt u give in to their every need, when they text u reply, when they call u pick up, when they say their life has been ruined by u, u believe. How long should one feel guilty for?

Like the movie the break-up, both moved on eventually eventhough they still had a thing for each other but knew they couldn live together coz of their differences...

I have made some bad choices in life.. and i feel that during break-ups u can always tell ur true friends from the "fake"ones.... those that will stick beside u no matter wad and will not judge u for wad u have done or whether u have made a bad choice or decision...

U knoe who u guys are... I really appreciate u ppl.. ppl that will always hold a special place in my heart....

Moving on is always the hardest part, or the aftermath of a break-up... the 'victim' always seem to have it harder.. but millions of ppl go through break-ups every minute of everyday and their lives go on... Some find their TRUE LOVE after all....

other than tat.. had a very eventful day i might add... hee... made lunch, baked a cake, ironed the clothes, met up wif bestie for a chat after not seeing her for like ages.. got caught in the downpour haha... be a driver for my brother (not tat i dun enjoy doing it haha, juz love driving.. hmm) ...

PLS STOP TIME!!!!!

I dun wanna go back.. sobz... mid-night suppers, movie marathons, long chats... things that are helping get through this patch in my life... thank u..

one more thing... i;m gonng write a promise... hahaha

I, Leslie Peacock, promise to update my blog as often as i can (every 3 days)(*fingers crossed*) when i get back to scotland... hehe... so that i won have ppl msging me update ur blog update ur blog ahha.... #pinky promise#

I guess its about time that i updated my blog eh...

Well life has taken an unexpected turn for me over the last few weeks. Made drastic decisions which have been swimming in my mind for a long time. i knoe i have made some people's lives a living hell and i truely apologise for it. From the bottom of my rotting heart i guess..

It is so difficult to please everyone in this world. i always feel that i have a need to, or at least try to, but somehow, someone always gets hurt in the process. I finally gave in to the people closest to me. Some may say i have no balls, some say it is the right choice. I dunno. I just felt that i should have decided from the start and not have allowed myself to have dragged it on for so long.

Going back in a few weeks. I guess it will be good news for some, at least i will be out of their hair- no more unnecessary trouble from me in a while.

to cher: thanxs for everything babes...

to key: haiz i am so sorry for bringing u unwanted problems and always getting u involved in things that u really shouldn have to bother abt... I feel so ashamed for not even knowing u were going thru a rough patch until it was over... some friend am i eh.. really hope we can meet up soon to talk things thru... so sorry.....

to the one who will never read this: where do i start.. not even sure myself. i had a choice put out in front of me... parents or the one i loved.... and i timidly chose parents. i juz felt u derserved better , someone who's parents appreciate u for who u are and not what... i knoe its sounds like something from a teenage diary but tats juz the way i see it... i knoe no amount of words can make up for what i did to u...

"Love is not love which alters when it alterations find. When life gets hard and things change, true love remains the same."

Love is patient, love is kind.
Love is not jealous, it does not brag, and it is not proud.
Love is not rude, is not selfish, and does not become angry easily.
Love does not remember wrongs done against it.
Love is not happy with evil, but is happy with truth.
Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Love never fails

Shame on the idols....

After going to watch a mini concert at the WaterFront @ the Esplanade I'm sad to say i think the idols can do much much better.... those ladies that sang tonite were superb... and i really really mean it. They each also sang individual songs by themselves and all of them were so so so so so so so so so upteen times good... the SIdols should learn one or two things from them.. ahha

Oh and another thing.. i knoe my skin is a bit boring haha.. will try to change it when i have the time as well.... i got to post one abt singapore drivers as well... coz one stupid BIATCH honked at me damn loudly juz now coz she couldn wait while i let a bus out of its lane... stupid lady...

hahah.... things will get messy soon.....

Nitez... Candy dreams

Bloggin Virgin

haha my very very first blog.. blogging in the comfort of my bestie's half broken chair haha... Why do i want a blog? Here are some reasons:

Everyone seems to have one.. (in fashion ahha)
I got sooooo many things that i wanna say
when i'm in the uk studying i seem to find myself with tons of free time so a blog will hopefully keep me occupied... (*fingers crossed*)
most important reason.. my bestie has een bugging me to get one since like forever haha.... and she had to help me set this one up becoz the technology sua ku over here hadn a clue how too haha....

so ya.. those are my reasons why haha...

Oh well.... never thought my first entry will be done on my bestie's lappy in her hall room while she concentrate wif all her heart and soul on her collage.. hahaa... why the 2 masters of the room laze on her small bed... oh well dunno wad else to say ahha

so obvious this is my first time doing dis right haha... blogging virgin

Nitez.. Candy Dreams...